Stream of Conciousness

What I want, more than anything else, is a new perspective.

Even though I have enjoyed the diversity a public school setting has provided for me at Medina and at Central, I still don't have a sense of fulfillment. I actually feel more or less confused experiencing these very different but special environments....

 I want to know how to harness what I have learned and use it in a productive way.  I don’t know if college will allow me to nurture this feeling, this need to do something about what I have learned. My schooling and love for learning has always been a defining characteristic for me, and I have always taken this in great stride, but right now I don't know if all my schooling is being put into good use.

Learning is a source for knowledge, the ability to adapt and change ways of thinking, letting it be okay if ideals clash because it identifies the variety of the human experience.

Learning and living is an EXPERIENCE,

cultivated on a daily basis and constantly redefined.  Without a sense of change or epiphany in knowledge, searching to discover the answer for ourselves can seem pretty meaningless. I just don't understand why people constantly search for the perfect answer.

I used to be a culprit, but now I realize being different doesn't mean you're wrong or unsuitable, I think it partially distracts us from the true fear of letting our own light shine and being different. We live in a society in which people demand the pictures of life to be constructed in

black and white,

with strict rigid guidelines and no shading left in between. So many people are missing the colors of life! I worry that my life has been defined by these same black and white photographs, where I am seen and defined by my

achievements rather than my core moral principals.

I am extremely proud of my accomplishments in life, grateful for the sense of perspective and direction they have given me, but I want to be DEFINED by something else, something more meaningful that can truly make an impact.

GLOBAL CITIZEN YEAR could let me revisit my vigor and sense of being, letting me take a year to learn my own ways of self-sustainability, reshaping and putting into context the true issues that lie ahead in our global community.